镜子里的我很不像我...
自从你离开了,我变得很软弱...
你的影子在每一个角落...
好像是在提醒着我少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞...
我想我可以习惯一个人生活...
我想我可以假装不曾爱过...
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我...
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺...
爱情怎么会是这个结果...

argh....tis lyrics really match wat i'm facing nw... ><

got to see her wif zengying...she look down...my fault lah!!! :X cn tell she's trying to be happy infront of us...sowwie uh :(... i caused all tis to u...plz forgive me :( i will try to make up to u...like i said 不管发生什么事 i'll be there :) hmm i mus be 乐观～！no point crying lerh...孙其自然 bah...as long as we are tgt there's still hope >.< haha...

Josephine manage to call me jus nw...hais...she got punished because of me...she told me she's okay but... i cn tell she's crying :X all my fault...都是我的错... :( everyone got sth or someone u wan to protect and she's the one i wan to protect >.<...but i failed...all i cn do is typing all tis rubiish here tats so useless and she cant see it...i am the one who caused tis :( hais... she dint blame me wic makes me feel mre guilty! :X...all i cn do is say 对不起...对不起 which doesnt help at all :0...maybe last fri maybe the last time we go out tgt tis year... but i cherished it...:) at least every moment we had tgt was full wif laughter and happiness :) i duncare lerh ltr i go taman jurong cc try my luck...even jus a look at her 我满足了...jus wanna see how she's doing....i dunmind her parents approach me >.< jus hope they dun beat her :(...T.T heard tat her father wan her to transfer sku...

jus rmb i love u once :)...tried nt to cry but i cant ~.~...promise me dun cry agn :)

19/11/09:
got bukit panjang open league cant go out wif piggy :X sowwie uh ~.~ anws happy 2nd month >.^

20/11/09:
7 early 8 early go meet piggy :X she make me walk all the way to pagoda to meet her!!! >=O argh!! :X... she gave me tabby the lion and one small bear(!?) :X and i gave her Pig-U the soft-toy cum massage stick but she use it to beat me instead!!! >=\ haha...



21/11/09:
beach tournament...mood spoiled piggy's bro send me msg and tell me not to msg her sis cause sth big happened...i think u all cn guess dao bah :X....hais...aft tat both of them cant be contacted till now...:( 我真的很怕...很怕很怕...会失去你 >.< realli v worried...confront alot of ppl...

22/11/09:
2nd day lerh all i cn do ish wait... :| for once i felt so useless and helpless...:O decided to find her during her paino lesson tml @ taman jurong cc to find out wat happen...hope her father doesnt tag along wif her...chances of meeting her is low..but i shall jus giv it a try yea... >_< even thought it might be jus 5mins :X...at least i cn find out wat happened...hope history wont repeat itself...不管发生什么事 i'll be there yea? ><