镜子里的我很不像我...
自从你离开了,我变得很软弱...
你的影子在每一个角落...
好像是在提醒着我少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞...
我想我可以习惯一个人生活...
我想我可以假装不曾爱过...
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我...
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺...
爱情怎么会是这个结果...

argh....tis lyrics really match wat i'm facing nw... ><

got to see her wif zengying...she look down...my fault lah!!! :X cn tell she's trying to be happy infront of us...sowwie uh :(... i caused all tis to u...plz forgive me :( i will try to make up to u...like i said 不管发生什么事 i'll be there :) hmm i mus be 乐观～！no point crying lerh...孙其自然 bah...as long as we are tgt there's still hope >.< haha...

Josephine manage to call me jus nw...hais...she got punished because of me...she told me she's okay but... i cn tell she's crying :X all my fault...都是我的错... :( everyone got sth or someone u wan to protect and she's the one i wan to protect >.<...but i failed...all i cn do is typing all tis rubiish here tats so useless and she cant see it...i am the one who caused tis :( hais... she dint blame me wic makes me feel mre guilty! :X...all i cn do is say 对不起...对不起 which doesnt help at all :0...maybe last fri maybe the last time we go out tgt tis year... but i cherished it...:) at least every moment we had tgt was full wif laughter and happiness :) i duncare lerh ltr i go taman jurong cc try my luck...even jus a look at her 我满足了...jus wanna see how she's doing....i dunmind her parents approach me >.< jus hope they dun beat her :(...T.T heard tat her father wan her to transfer sku...

jus rmb i love u once :)...tried nt to cry but i cant ~.~...promise me dun cry agn :)

19/11/09:
got bukit panjang open league cant go out wif piggy :X sowwie uh ~.~ anws happy 2nd month >.^

20/11/09:
7 early 8 early go meet piggy :X she make me walk all the way to pagoda to meet her!!! >=O argh!! :X... she gave me tabby the lion and one small bear(!?) :X and i gave her Pig-U the soft-toy cum massage stick but she use it to beat me instead!!! >=\ haha...



21/11/09:
beach tournament...mood spoiled piggy's bro send me msg and tell me not to msg her sis cause sth big happened...i think u all cn guess dao bah :X....hais...aft tat both of them cant be contacted till now...:( 我真的很怕...很怕很怕...会失去你 >.< realli v worried...confront alot of ppl...

22/11/09:
2nd day lerh all i cn do ish wait... :| for once i felt so useless and helpless...:O decided to find her during her paino lesson tml @ taman jurong cc to find out wat happen...hope her father doesnt tag along wif her...chances of meeting her is low..but i shall jus giv it a try yea... >_< even thought it might be jus 5mins :X...at least i cn find out wat happened...hope history wont repeat itself...不管发生什么事 i'll be there yea? ><

Friday:
went to bukit panjang wit >hamster< =P si short leg make me walk under sun so long!!!i very dark liao ltr i become my *friends* how!!! walk around panjang... here walk walk there walk walk...dk which idoit built so many playground!!! lucky i mature nv play >.< and i found that bloody playground that make me lost my front tooth last time @%^%$@#$%^!!! and nw, i am goin to tell u all a story abt a hamster going 7-11 buy water


auntie?(quite young call jie jie abit wierd so bo bian cor auntie! X)) damn funny cn~

hamster: * taking our slurpee cup *
auntie : *from behind us* NEED HELP?!?!?!?
me and hamster xia dao i scared untill i pee on my pants! (the pee on pants part joke nia =X)
hamster: er..er...no nid...(she cfm regret le!!)
auntie:*walk away* okay...
so that act smart hamster =X ownself do. guess wad...POK!!! thn the cap loosen =.= lousy right! ppl help dunwan thn act smart!!! snoopy! thn the auntie come help thn bring to counter...
auntie: see la! i wan help u do u dunwan...(keep reapeating to herself)

moral of the story hamsters are stupid! no..no.. i mean stupid jiu hao dun act stupid-er!!! wonder why i wasnt in the story? i was busy laughing!!! =X

thn after that go dk wad shopping mall walk walk thn take bus go jp thn go jp library thn frm there walk to pagoda!!!! thks to that short leg hamster >again< mus walk very long!!! but i choose wrg way >.< choose dao the long way =X reach le dwn there slack... thn jiu go home le...btw i only took 20min to walk home neh! chiayong nxt time cn challenege le!! ~.~ we very eco-friendly dee we walk instead of using transport =D!!